It’s official… well as official as you’ll consider something that comes from Nintendo’s Wii Fit… So I guess it’s virtually official… I am no longer obese. Unfortunately I’m still very overweight… but I’m working hard to change that!
With losing weight and getting stronger, I’ve noticed lots of cool things. Here’s some of them:
- I enjoy playing outside with my boys more. I run with them, I’ll join in on the backyard kickball, baseball, and soccer games.
- My youngest is learning to ride his bike, and I can run next to him as he rides.
- Being outside in 90 degree weather is more bearable without all the extra weight.
- I can shop in regular stores for clothes and be confident that there will be clothes that will fit me.
- I’m usually not the fattest person in the room, at the store, at the park… not that I delight in other people’s obesity… but when you’ve been overweight for so long, when you walk into a room, you tend to look around to see if you’re the fattest person there. (Well at least I did.) And I often was. But not so much now.
- I enjoy going for hikes and doing active things with my family.
- I’m not depressed.
- I feel more confident.
- I feel pretty. (I can’t quite say that without singing it, remember that song? I only know it from the scene in Dirty Dancing where the sister was doing it in the talent show… I feel pretty, oh so pretty, I feel pretty, and witty, and kind… or something like that.)
- I feel proud of myself.
One thing that losing weight and getting stronger has not done is improve my relationship with God. His love for me has not grown. He’s loved me all along. His grace was enough to cover my sinful eating and my laziness in taking care of my body that He created. However, I’m sure he’s pleased to see me now making healthier choices.Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies. (1 Corinthians 6:19-20)
But, I need to be careful to honor God and not myself. All of this focus on my eating, my exercise, and my body makes it very easy to focus on myself and not on God. I’ll admit I’ve spent more time lately on www.MyFitnessPal.com than I have in my Bible. More time looking in the mirror than looking to God.
Oh Lord, please forgive me for focusing more on myself than on you. Help me, God, to find that balance of taking care of myself all for your Glory and not mine. Help me, God, to delight in your word and spending time with you. Help me to think less of myself and more of you. Thank you God that you loved me just as much when I weighed 200 pounds, but thank you God that I am no longer obese. Thank you God that I can run outside with my children. Thank you God that you are with me, that you are Mighty to Save, that you take great delight in me, that you quite me with your love, and that you rejoice over me with singing. (see Zephaniah 3:17)