“God, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which You have called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 3:13-14)  Help me to forget all past failures or even achievements and to focus on pressing forward with You now.” (Beth Moore, Praying God’s Word)

Yesterday I talked about praying for my children and my home.  Today, continuing with prayer, I pulled out Beth Moore’s Praying God’s Word.  There’s a section in it on “Overcoming Food Related Strongholds.”  So today, in addition to praying for my boys and my home (with the candle reminder), I’m praying for my eating.  But instead of using the candle to remind me to pray about my eating, I’m doing it whenever I think about or see food… which means I’m pretty much praying all day long about it!

Some of the prayer was intentional, sit down with the Bible or Beth Moore’s book, but most of it was quick pleas: “God I’m going to eat lunch, help me to eat wisely and in moderation.”  “God, that candy looks so good, help take my mind off of it.” “God, I know it’s crappy for me and won’t satisfy me at all, but I really want to eat that macaroni and cheese, please help me to resist.”  “God, thank you that right now that piece of cake is absolutely no temptation for me.  But I know there will be times it is, help me to stand firm in temptation.”

And then there was also the prayer for mercy as I stood on the scale for the first time in a long time.  I offered a prayer of thanksgiving that my weight didn’t go back over a certain threshold that I celebrated last spring.  But I also had to offer a prayer of confession as my weight was showing the consequence of overeating and many “I’ll get on track tomorrow” days.  So today I’m praying for the discipline, the strength, and the fight to overcome this food related strong hold in my life.  And I’m choosing to make good decisions.  To help keep me accountable without going to weight watchers for a weigh-in, I’ve decided that I’ll use Training Tuesday’s blog posts as my check in with my weight fluctuations (preferably losses!).  I’m not ready to “own” my current weight here, but I’m hoping to lose 40 pounds by bathing suit weather.

So thanks for giving me an outlet to work through this battle and place to hold me accountable.  If you are currently trying to lose weight, or inches, or sizes or however you measure, or know you need to gain weight or stop bingeing and purging or whatever your food related battle, feel free to join me and use Tuesday’s comment section as a place to check in and hold yourself accountable as well.

“Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work: If one falls down, his friend can help him up.  But pity the man who falls down and has no one to help him up!” (Ecclesiastes 4:9-10, 12)

♥Becki, imperfect weight loss journeyer