Pretty much my whole life I’ve been overweight. I could blame it on genetics, after all a lot of people in my family have been overweight. But the fact is that I’m overweight because I eat too much. I eat when I’m bored, I eat when I’m happy, I eat when I’m uncomfortable, I eat because food is there, if I’m not eating I’m often thinking about what I’m going to eat next. I have replaced my hunger for God with a hunger for food.
I know these things. I’ve confessed these things. I’ve battled these things. I’ve had some victories. But as I type this, I’m still considered obese. A year ago I decided to embrace my imperfection and not worry about my weight. Really I think I was just giving myself a license to eat what I wanted when I wanted. That resulted in me reaching my highest weight ever. I decided I didn’t want to stay that way.
I knew I was not going to magically wake up one day in a skinny person’s body with a skinny person’s mentality. I needed to fight this battle. I have not yet obtained and maintained a healthy weight. But I press on…
“Not that I already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me.”
I have no intention to write or share with you a weight loss or exercise plan. I know how God has asked me to eat and be active today, but He hasn’t told me beyond that. On Tuesdays, what I’m calling “Training Tuesdays” I’ll share my imperfections, my battles, my losses and my victories. My desire is that if you share those imperfections with me, you’ll know you are not alone. That perhaps some wisdom I’m learning in my journey will be exactly what you need to hear at exactly the right time. (Ok… maybe my deepest desire is that one day soon I’ll be able to say that I am now at a healthy weight and wearing some really cute size 6 skinny jeans with knee high boots – hopefully they’ll still be in fashion! Hey, I’ve already admitted I’m imperfect, so I might as well be completely honest.)